Lost....

I wondered whether to write this but even though it is not something any parent would like others to know, I wondered if anyone else has experienced the same thing and if so-please contact me. Last Thursday I sat in my son's Headteacher's office and felt lost, I was stunned and felt to say the least a little sick, what she had told me had made me question Kaine's sanity. We know pretty much what our children could be capable of-I guess if a teacher tells me my son had broken someone's arm, it wouldn't surprise me, if I was informed my son had smashed a window that wouldn't alarm me....you see my son is going or now possibly gone to a place where no-one can help him, he too is lost. We thought that Kaine may want to do an after school activity-the Arts Club, so we allowed him to go and we thought all was well that faithfull Wednesday night as he came out and all was quiet. Then Thursday afternoon came and a meeting with the headteacher changed all that. My son while he was at Arts Club had decided to take a young man's lunch box which had food still in it, he not only did this but he took it into the toilet with him but it didn't stop there......my son, well, my son put the food and the lunch box down the toilet and then...pooed all over it! Yes you heard me right. My son did it....I sat there with this blank expression on my face unable to comprehend what I had just heard. Stealing a lunch box is one thing, puting into the toilet is another but having a poo on it goes well beyond human comprehension. My son is disturbed, my son has gone to a point where I have no idea what he will do now, they say he is confused, angry, depressed...but this, this is way more than that, this is well I don't know what this is! The headteacher was shocked when she was told on the Thursday and when she asked him why he said he did it but didn't know why. My son isn't sexually active an so it isn't one of those sexual 'get off's' you hear about (people do strnge things where sex is involved-faeces is one of them but that's another area for a psychologist!!). This is so odd..no odd isn't the right word...I don't even know what the right word is except to say..shit my son is really screwed up! No parent wants to admit this to a world wide audience but there are times when you have to say help...has anyone else heard of this at all. I did not bring my son up to do this, this is not my fault. He has been abandoned by his biological father and this has made him detached and aggressive, he feels uncomfortable and threatened by his sister, he is mad at me because I have kept the same rules and consequencs inhis life and he is kicking back that others let him off and give him an excuse and I say no this is not acceptable, he hates me because I don't allow him to use his disability as an excuse to attack others. He is frustrated at school because he is struggling and I am still pushing for help and a Statement.....but this isn't right, there is no explanantion as to why. He didn't have a grudge against the lad, they didn't fall out, he wasn't hungry and then dropped it all down the toilet. What the hell is going on in his head to make a 10 year old do this sort of act! I have no answers. I am simply Lost.... www.AnimalAgentz.com http://darkangel6976.stumbleupon.com