To the week ahead!

So it's been one hell of a week, meetings, red cards at school as he has been 'unruly' and even the unexpected turn from his bio father! Yeah we will see how long that lasts! So tomorrow the panel decide whether he deserves an Statement of Educational Needs-this means if they say yes he will be guaranteed help within a school setting and this is decided by law. We may be lucky and get full hours or we may have to fight again for full hours or to make sure he gets dinnertime support or even support at play time!This has been a long time coming and nerves are setting in, the same with respite-it's given to us but will we be told they can't find anyone in our area-my dad has informed me that his (then) wife who was a social worker used to take children to their respite carer's so he knows that social services do offer this support! seems ironic how a woman I never got on with is now helping me inadvertently with a situation we have strived for for many years! He has started cubs with the support worker and we have the Family Fund papers here to sort out and also his Disability Living Allowance forms came-they always give you months to fill them in....have you seen those bluddy forms! lol We got told also on Friday that a meeting has been set up with the respite social worker and the psychologist and us at the social workers venue-hmmm trust is an issue and so we are hoping to take a 3rd party witness with us! How sad it is that I can't trust the people that are supposed to be helping, seems I have fought them for so long I am weary of everything they say now-not something I like or want as I know that some social workers strive to help families but the ones we have had dealing with our case have built brick walls and us and other agencies have had to complain and move the mountains!I used to have so much admiration for them and in my younger days I too went to college hoping to go to University to become a Social Worker-I wanted to make sure that I could help those in need to, to help them the way my 1st social worker helped me.....red tape gets in the way and people suffer in the process, how sad that is when I guess most people set out to be great social workers and want to really change people's lives for the better but as time goes by I see those people change and it's just a job that pays the mortgage-the buzz they got fades and with it so does their emotional feelings!I am tired though....seems I have spent most of his life fighting for him and he has given me even more grief for doing so!I am at the point where I am thinking about all the good things I can do without him for those precious weekends he will be at respite....I wonder if that is a bad thing to admit or just a human things to reveal.So this week will prove to be interesting and hopefully productive.